Things I learned while staring at the ceiling at 3AM:
1. A blue moon has the uncanny ability to simultaneously
light up an entire one bedroom apartment and keep both a (very sleepy) English
bulldog and a very thoughtful human awake for an obscene amount of time.
2. Every morning, there is an actual physical, emotional,
and spiritual rebirth that takes place...if you are awake during the latter
part of the process, you can actually feel this happening. It is magic,
especially during a new moon. Thoughts regenerate…cells regenerate…..you can
feel things and sense things…and you can figure shit out….and actually
understand the lessons you need to learn.
3. Some people really drain the life out of you. They steal
your energy, like vampires. No matter how shiny they look, or how beautiful you
perceive them to be…if it feels wrong, if you feel heavy when you are around
them, you HAVE to let them go….people will judge you no matter what. Do what is
right for YOU.
4. One of my neighbors likes to smoke pot right around 3:15.
Maybe they can’t sleep either.
5. Every single person has a past. We’ve all partied until
5AM on countless nights, made really poor dating decisions, spent way more
money than we should have, experimented, lied, cheated, been cheated on, broken
hearts, gossiped, been manipulative, had their heart broken, been less than
healthy, failed at something that mattered the world, had to rebuild a life, danced
around naked in the rain (Ok, maybe that last one isn’t true for everyone)…and
STILL some people think that they have the right to criticize and judge, and
turn their noses up at others. And last night’s lesson was, that you should
respect those people. They are on their own path, love them anyway, but remove
them from your life quickly….gracefully…and run…far…away.
6. Charlie’s breath is horrible. Must be from eating Taco
Tuesday leftovers.
7. I am extremely proud of the people in my circle….my
friends….my soulmates….my besties…..some of them have left six figure jobs, busted
their asses in school, and without a second thought, made sandwiches for people
while they chase their dreams. Others have left bad marriages and have
flourished with new careers, and a stronger, brighter self-esteem. A few have experienced
breaking apart, piecing back together, recovering from severe addictions to
become a change the world needs, they have risen from the ashes, they have
picked up and moved to far-away places, they have built beautiful lives for
themselves, struggled to do what they love, to help others, to be good friends,
mothers, brothers, wives….I’m sure they have all judged themselves from time to
time, but few have truly judged others…and most have never judged me…
8. This lesson is simple…but it’s a difficult one to learn:
The past is gone. The future is never guaranteed. The time to create yourself
is now….it doesn’t matter who you were or who you will be. Every “now” is
another opportunity to be the best possible version of yourself.
9. I’d like to believe that everyone is striving for
self-improvement and self-discovery. Everyone is just trying to live….to be better…..this
is a belief of mine…which is why I like to give everyone the benefit of the
doubt…and this is why I love so much. This is who I am. This is not going to
change. Even if I get burned. Period.
10. I need to pick up Lavender Oil, Toilet bowl cleaner, and
a new mop head next time I go grocery shopping…. And Melatonin. I need
Melatonin too.
