Blue Moon and Melatonin

Things I learned while staring at the ceiling at 3AM:

1. A blue moon has the uncanny ability to simultaneously light up an entire one bedroom apartment and keep both a (very sleepy) English bulldog and a very thoughtful human awake for an obscene amount of time.

2. Every morning, there is an actual physical, emotional, and spiritual rebirth that takes place...if you are awake during the latter part of the process, you can actually feel this happening. It is magic, especially during a new moon. Thoughts regenerate…cells regenerate…..you can feel things and sense things…and you can figure shit out….and actually understand the lessons you need to learn.

3. Some people really drain the life out of you. They steal your energy, like vampires. No matter how shiny they look, or how beautiful you perceive them to be…if it feels wrong, if you feel heavy when you are around them, you HAVE to let them go….people will judge you no matter what. Do what is right for YOU.

4. One of my neighbors likes to smoke pot right around 3:15. Maybe they can’t sleep either.

5. Every single person has a past. We’ve all partied until 5AM on countless nights, made really poor dating decisions, spent way more money than we should have, experimented, lied, cheated, been cheated on, broken hearts, gossiped, been manipulative, had their heart broken, been less than healthy, failed at something that mattered the world, had to rebuild a life, danced around naked in the rain (Ok, maybe that last one isn’t true for everyone)…and STILL some people think that they have the right to criticize and judge, and turn their noses up at others. And last night’s lesson was, that you should respect those people. They are on their own path, love them anyway, but remove them from your life quickly….gracefully…and run…far…away.

6. Charlie’s breath is horrible. Must be from eating Taco Tuesday leftovers.

7. I am extremely proud of the people in my circle….my friends….my soulmates….my besties…..some of them have left six figure jobs, busted their asses in school, and without a second thought, made sandwiches for people while they chase their dreams. Others have left bad marriages and have flourished with new careers, and a stronger, brighter self-esteem. A few have experienced breaking apart, piecing back together, recovering from severe addictions to become a change the world needs, they have risen from the ashes, they have picked up and moved to far-away places, they have built beautiful lives for themselves, struggled to do what they love, to help others, to be good friends, mothers, brothers, wives….I’m sure they have all judged themselves from time to time, but few have truly judged others…and most have never judged me…

8. This lesson is simple…but it’s a difficult one to learn: The past is gone. The future is never guaranteed. The time to create yourself is now….it doesn’t matter who you were or who you will be. Every “now” is another opportunity to be the best possible version of yourself.

9. I’d like to believe that everyone is striving for self-improvement and self-discovery. Everyone is just trying to live….to be better…..this is a belief of mine…which is why I like to give everyone the benefit of the doubt…and this is why I love so much. This is who I am. This is not going to change. Even if I get burned. Period.

10. I need to pick up Lavender Oil, Toilet bowl cleaner, and a new mop head next time I go grocery shopping…. And Melatonin. I need Melatonin too.